Archive for March, 2011

Who will love me for me?

March 28, 2011

JJ Heller’s song, “What Love Really Means” has been on my mind a lot lately.   I’m going to ramble for a little here so you might just want to skip to the video 🙂

There are times where I feel “forgotten about”.  I know it’s not true but it doesn’t help make that feeling go away.  Sometimes the world seems to swallow me and I’m not sure what in the heck I am doing here.  You know the feeling?  It’s such an awful feeling.  But then I remember there is someone who hasn’t forgotten about me.  Someone who has been there every step of the way.  They haven’t left when I made mistakes or sinned.  It’s that same person who loves us when we gain those extra pounds and we don’t feel as beautiful as we are.  It’s that same person who loves us for who we are without question.  For me, it makes me smile when I know that there is someone who “… will love you for you, Not for what you have done or what you will become, I will love you for you, I will give you the love, the love that you never knew.”   I don’t have to change who I am or lose those extra pounds or be perfect.  Christ loves me the way he made me.

I hope you will take a few minutes and watch the video and feel the love from our Savior!  I’m done rambling 🙂






Lessons learned

March 24, 2011

I learned a few things today.  I learned that you can give 110% of yourself to help someone but if they don’t want it, nothing will change.  I learned that sometimes being the “tough” teacher is the best thing to do for a student.  I learned that kids still WANT to be kids.

I learned or was reminded that I am a good teacher.  My only fault is that I care too much.  I guess that’s a good fault to have.

Toilet for Tanzania :)

March 18, 2011

One of my team members has a great idea for a toilet in Tanzania.  He sent us the picture below.

Ah, wishful thinking!!!  I can tell you that my quad muscles are going to be ridiculously fit after 3 weeks of squatting!  hahahaha!!!

Please continue to keep us in your prayers!  I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

For Lori :)

March 17, 2011

How many of you remember a teacher from elementary school that made learning fun?  Or maybe they made you feel welcome into their room.  You might remember a teacher who allowed you to be yourself or listened when you had a problem.  I remember a few teachers from elementary through high school who inspired me to be a good student and work hard.   Some were patient and allowed me to have extra time to learn something new.  Of course, one helped me see that music was my “thing” and that I should pursue a music career.  I remember that 10th grade is when I decided I wanted to be a teacher.  It wasn’t a career I chose later in life or decided to do because it would be easy.  I want to be that “teacher someone remembers”….in a good way of course 😉

Most of you know that this year has been challenging.  Not just for the “new” music teacher, but for many of the veteran teachers.  My dear friend Lori teaches 4th grade at my school.  She was one of the first people to welcome me and include me in things.  She is an amazing teacher – she will be the “teacher someone remembers” by many!  Twice I week I pull out a few of her students for RtI.  She values her students time and mine which is why she gives me materials for the month.  It takes time to plan for RtI and to ensure that the grouping of students is appropriate.  The students speak so highly of her and that is due to her respect for them and her LOVE for teaching.

When I hear of teachers, like Lori, feeling so discouraged and depleted, it breaks my heart.  I would hate for teachers to become so robotic that we are not allowed to give children the space they need to learn.  The requirements that are being placed on teachers and students is making it difficult to teach.  It is a shame that our future leaders are not given the same opportunities we had.  It is a shame that our future leaders are forced to learn how to TEST instead of learning.  It is a shame that amazing teachers are struggling to find the desire and LOVE to come to work everyday.

So to Lori and all the teachers like her – Thank you for your compassion and love for our future leaders!  Thank you for taking time away from your families to plan lessons, grade papers, call parents, attend evening events.  Most of all, thank you for being the wonderful person God created you 🙂  (especially LORI!)


March 10, 2011

As most of you know, I will be traveling to Tanzania this summer on a 3 week mission trip where our team will work on a remote medical clinic on the edge of the Serengeti. I will be part of a 14 person team led by my Pastor from Grace Lutheran Church and School in Jacksonville, Fl.  Pastor Rick has been traveling to Tanzania for 12 years so I have complete faith in him to lead us….or I’ll be finding a new church!  JUST KIDDING!!!!

While I am extremely excited to be a part of this mission trip, I am beginning to have quite a bit of anxiety.  I’m anxious about a bunch of things.  I have never been camping where it didn’t include a cabin and indoor plumbing.  I’ve never slept outside….unless you count sleeping on the trampoline in the backyard, but even then I was scared when it got dark and we usually ended up in the house before the sun came up!  We won’t have fresh drinking water at our fingertips.  We will boil the water or use a 2-day filter.  We’ll also be cooking our own food…..I don’t really like to cook as it is.  There won’t be access to internet or phone while we are on site.  I won’t know if something happens to my loved ones at home BUT that’s where faith in Christ kicks in and I know that His will be done.

While this anxiety is causing lack of sleep, I am also really excited and humbled to be a part of this team.  There are about 6 high school/college freshman on the team.  They make me smile 🙂  Instead of spending their summer at parties or visiting friends before they begin college, they will be sleeping in the Bush boiling water with me!  Why are they doing this?  Because God spoke to them and they have the courage to answer the call and be a witness to the Maasai.  Doesn’t it make you smile?!

Please pray for us.  Pray for my anxiety to be silenced.  Pray that we raise the funds we need by the 1st week of May.  Pray that God shines through us.  Pray that I don’t get eaten by wild animals 😉